Getting Started

Hi Everyone,

Welcome to my blog! I suppose I should tell you a bit about myself and what I hope to accomplish here.  So away we go!

I’m KMB, a thirty-something year old woman living and working in NYC. Like many health and weight-loss bloggers (and readers), I’ve struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I’ve been up and down the scale so, so many times. I’ve tried all the fad diets, some with success, but always end up back where I started eventually. Throughout it all I’ve read tons of articles on weight loss, subscribed to the magazines, learned to cook healthy meals, followed a handful of bloggers, etc., and the one thing I can say with certainty is that everyone’s story is different, what works for one person may not work for the next, and the reasons behind the weight gain and the struggle are incredibly vast. For me, I believe it’s partly genetic, partly because of all the diets and losses and gains over the years, but mostly because of emotional eating. It sounds so cliched, I know, but I spent my life eating my feelings: sadness, loneliness, anxiety, insecurity, boredom, fear, the list could go on and on. Luckily I spent the last two years digging deep and excavating the real issues behind all of those feelings. It wasn’t pretty and there is still work to do, but I think I’m much more aware now of how I feel and am in much more control over how I respond to those feelings. In essence, I think I’m ready to let of this weight, literally and figuratively, for good this time.

So the plan is to use this blog as a way to honestly look at my progress and setbacks, to hold myself accountable, and to share this physical and emotional journey with others who might  find some comfort, or resonance, or even some inspiration for themselves.

My current goal is to lose 30 pounds by the end of December 2012. I have more than that to lose, but that feels like a good medium-term goal. I re-committed to my workouts and goals in the beginning of July, but I didn’t track my weight until last week. In the past I’ve been my most successful when I wasn’t weighing in very often (the scale can be so discouraging). However, this time I really want to be aware of how I’m doing so I can tweak my food or exercise choices. So far I’m four pounds down which is a pretty nice start. I’m using the Zero Scale which tracks how much you’ve lost or gained from your last weigh-in without showing your actual weight unless you want to see it. It’s been great so far. Not knowing my actual weight helps me stay focused on my smaller goals without being overwhelmed.

Since pictures are sometimes even more inspiring than actual numbers, I’m posting my starting photos. I thought this would be much harder for me to do, but it’s actually kind of freeing. Without further ado, here I am make-up free, in the worst lighting possible for all the world to see.

July 2012

July 2012

See, that wasn’t so hard.  But, man, my mirror is dirty! Maybe next time I’ll get the hubby to take the photos for me.

Anyway, this is me for now, but not for long… I’m certain.